Happiness today!!!

YAY!! Today is a good, good day; in fact, this is a good, good weekend. I slept in, did my math homework (and understood it!), cleaned my room and danced around my room to some the best happy songs ever. I'm gonna mop the kitchen floor now and then finish "The Count of Monte Cristo," which ranks in my Top 10 favorite adventure movies. (Don't ask which is #1 cause I'd have to think about it for a long time.)

Laughing cause there's no good reason to cry....

I'm doing SO much better. That's cause all this drama that has enveloped my week involved a guy who is SUCH a gentleman and he made everything better by being there for me and being my friend. It's sad that there can't be anything else but I know that this is best and that's the best decision I can make right now....don't ask for better than my 110% best.

All's well when God is at the helm of the ship, that's what my motto is. I think this would be TEN times harder if we weren't friends but we are and I don't think that either of us would want to risk losing something as good as our honest friendship.

I am writing a sad poem called, "Nature Mourns." Sometimes, when I am sad, I can write really good poetry (at least good for me.) Sometimes, when I am sad, the saddness is too strong for me to think creatively and it all has to wait behind the curtain for act two-which is now, when that creative sadness emerges to take center stage. When I finish my poem, I will put it on my blog so keep checking for it. But remember, my poetry almost always expresses my feelings stronger than they actually are or were. Sometimes, my poems hit the nail on the head. But I think that this poem will fall in the middle-keep that in mind.

Well, if you work with me, you know this is a BIG part of who I am-REVENGE!! Hahaha.

Here's my killer swan dive!! Hahaha! You should see it off a diving board.

I love this plaque at the exit of the Mission.

Me in a tree, in a skirt, at the San Juan Capistrano Mission.

I just got done surfing on a 9'6" longboard!!! Wow. My shoulders were pretty built during the summer. Too bad I lacked abs. Hahaha.

Goofing around with my sis at the beach. (<-She started it!!)

All dressed up with no place to go!! Hey, she's wearing MY dress!!!

I like this one. You can so see that one eye is smaller than the other. Thanks to my stupidity-I let a horse kick me in the face when I was 7.

Me and my beautiful sis-the day before I blonded my hair.

Laughing to keep from crying...

I have had the worst past 24 hours. I don't really know how it all went downhill this fast but it did. If I stay in perspective-which I really really need to- I haven't had it too bad. But compared to the rest of my short life, it was PRETTY bad. Massive guy drama, school, and about 4 hours of sleep through it all-so yep, I'm dealing with a stress level I have never dealt with before.

Oh well. God is helping me to grow!!!

Knowledge in My Brain, Wind in My Hair, Sunglasses on My Face, Me on My Horse

That title sums up yesterday. It was EXHILIRATING. I went to the Design Science Association meeting in the morning instead of going snowboarding (cause it is below zero on the mt.) and went horseback riding on Ariel in the afternoon. We may not get President's Day off at the college but I got to ride Ariel on Saturday so I am happy.
The DSA meeting was so good because the speaker talked about how worldviews effect our culture. He talked about monism, biblical theism, evangelical humanism, naturalism, and I forget the last worldview but it was SO good.
Then I went riding: Becki rode on Bunny and I rode on Ariel. At the end, Ariel and I ran up and down the pasture (she goes 40 mph for her top speed but she's out of shape now.) I loved every minute of it!
This morning I slept in till 10:30 so I have a lot of homework to catch up on. Just letting you know how everything is going!

God is so good. He has given me every GOOD desire of my heart. Rightly is He to be praised.

So frustrated!!!

I was just in writing class. The first half of the class was a good discussion between the teacher and one of the students. While it was good, it is writing class-we should be talking about writing! Anyway, then she gave us an article about Sally Ride, the first female astronaut in the USA, and about her efforts to encourage girls to be as good if not better than guys. It seems like my teacher has a total agenda. She is teaching the wrong class if she wants to reorganize our ethics. I had a lot to say about the article but we didn't have time today so we are going to continue discussion of the article next class. That is probably good because I was so worked up about how over dramatized the feminist movement is. Whatever. Now I am going to go to work...

Oh yeah! Happy Valentine's Day!!!!

Happy Valentines' Day!!

"True Love For You"
A Poem by Me

When you're smiling,
I want to make you laugh.
When you're crying,
I want to drive the tears away.
When you're singing,
I want the world to be mute, and listen.
When you're running from life,
I want to hold your hands and stop the fear.
When you're dancing,
I want to be the music that lifts your feet.
When your arms are empty,
I want to fill them with myself.
When you think of true love,
I want you to think of me.
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I wrote this on February 3rd. I wasn't writing it with anyone particular in mind, just being romantic. Maybe how I would want some guy to feel about me, and me about him. But there is no one like this for me, not yet.
Leave me a comment and tell me how you like it. If you want to read other poems I have written, go to www.christianpoetry.org and look under their poets for my name. I think I have about five or six poems there. Or you can try to find them in the archives of this blog.

That is that.

I met a guy, we liked each other, I witnessed to him, he got mad, he isn't speaking to me. I guess I should just expect this to happen no matter what guy I meet. Oh well, it was God's will.
I just got out of math class. I am in the library surrounded by gruesome pictures on the walls by post-modern art students. Also around me are hundreds of souls who Christ needs to reach. Where to start? Well I don't know so I will wait for the Holy Spirit; He hasn't let me down so far...

I guess a good place to start is the guy who just waved to me. He comes to lap swim on Tuesdays and Thursday and Allison swears he likes me. I wish no guy (till the perfect guy) would like-like me ever again. But I suppose that that is one way to reach people for Christ.

I have to go teach at the pool. Oh, yeah, pray for Mike. He is in one of my classes. We talked yesterday and he may come work at the pool this summer if they hire him. He is a really nice guy, not my type, but a nice guy. Well, I really do need to go now. Sorry this posting was so random, if you know me at all you will be able to make some sense of it and understand my train of thought a little.

The last thing is that I am so totally bummed because I did 5 extra hours of homework last night, writing a memo that isn't due till next week. Oh well, at least it is done and I don't have to worry about it.

Is this really what the world is like?

I am sitting in the library trying to tell you all about my week and this guy next to me keeps talking to me and asking me about the dates of fall term and summer term. Yes, I am being polite. He is quiet now....
I have a guy question and I need a guy to answer it...any takers? No, I am not going to ask my friendly computer neighbor. My question is: A married guy in my math class keeps saying little things that make me feel uncomfortable. He is like 3o-something and he keeps saying stuff like I am beautiful, etc., every SINGLE class. Last class he called me "honey!!!" That totally freaked me out. I need a body-guard.....
American Government is still swell (do we even use that adjective anymore?) but writing a page long memo every week about foreign policy is getting tough. On Tuesday I stayed up till midnight writing it because it was so hard to find an article to go off of.
Back to the library...I am sitting at those funky curved tables with the computers at them. Across from me is a guy who needs to shave, next to me on my right is Mr. Curious, and diagonal to me is a guy who practically has his finger in his eye and is wearing a hat that say "Dazed and Confused." He looks dazed....from what I do not know....
Well, I didn't bring any lunch and I am super hungry so I need to go to the cafeteria thingy...I will update soon.

School is going pretty awesome!!!

I have decided I do like my writing teacher. It just takes a little while to get used to her. My math teacher is as always funny and the two guys and girl I sit with are great people. My American Government class has been heating up...
Wednesday we were talking about free press. The teacher asked if anyone agreed that we had a free press. (One thing about my class is about five people talk and the rest of the class is practically asleep.) So I piped up, furiously swallowing my dominating fear of man's opinion and said, "No. We do not have a free press. We have a biased press." The teacher's eyebrows went up and he came over and sat on the table in front of my seat.
Mr. Reynolds, my teacher, has said many times that he wants discussion in class. Well, I was about to give him a facefull. :) He asked me what my opinion was and this is what was said (roughly):

"The Jews control the media." (Yikes!! What a starter. I have no idea if there are Jews in the room but fortunately I am in the front row so I just put little blinders on (so to speak.))

"Pardon me?"

"The Jews control the media and they have an agenda, therefore, they restrict those who have ideas that are contrary to their agenda." Surprisingly, another girl in my class seemed to know what I was talking about and mentioned a few corporations she knew were Jewish owned.
We talked about that a little more before talking about OPB (Oregon Public Broadcasting.)

"So is that free press?"

"Absolutely not!" I said, "If you have ever watched any of their nature shows they never once mention the side of creationism yet push for evolution the entire time."

"It sounds to me like you are coming from a very religious foundation. That is okay-you can organize your life around religion if you want." He said something else I don't really remember before starting this sentence:

"I don't know of any serious scientist who doesn't believe in evolu...." I instantly raised my hand. He stopped and motioned for me to say what I wanted.

"Have you ever heard of the book 'In Six Days?' Because that book is made up of essays by 50 scientists, most of whom have Ph.D.'s and teach at prestigious universities around the nation, who have found scientific proof against evolution in numerous areas of study from mathematics to micro-biology. I just wanted to make you aware of that because it isn't quite true to say that no creation scientists exist."

At this point another student said, "Is this book speaking about creation or offering criticism of evolution? Because creationism is just a theory."

"So is evolution. No human being was present to see it happen therefore any idea of how the world was created is just a theory."

The teacher said something about fruit flies evolving to which I responded that that example is merely micro-evolution, although I didn't get the opportunity to explain what micro-evolution is.
This entire discussion was spaced throughout twenty minutes which is nearly half the class. Today I had Am. Gov. again and at the end Mr. Reynolds asked me if he had quite thoroughly offended me last class. I said he hadn't and the conversation was over.
So I have decided two things, well it is more like three:

1. I love college.
2. College is not about finally getting a date.
3. College is about apologetics/defending what I sincerely believe.

I'm Back!!

Well, it has been way too long. But I am in college now and homework is eating me alive and it is just the first week. Crazy, right? I think the only reason it is really stressful is I have never had to do homework before. I mean I have at least 25-30 problems in Math 95 due tomorrow, 10 pages of reading in Writing 121 and a draft summary due Thursday. Fortunately, my American Government instructor was polite and refrained from giving out any homework. But he has two more days this week to do it.
Fortunately, next Monday is MLK Jr. Day so we have no school. Too bad it isn't in a few weeks when I'm really going to need the break.
I am at the college library right now and I just finished Writing 121. There were some really cute guys in my class. Speaking of cute guys, just about the most handsome guy I have ever seen is on the computer opposite me-wow! :) I know, I know, you're laughing..but he is!!
After I finish here I have to go to the pool, lifeguard for an hour, after which I have a break for an hour then I teach fo two hours. Then-homework!!!!!!
Oh yeah! I turned 18 last Sunday!! Wahoo!! Happy Birthday to me!!

Nearly Christmas!!!

I have a bunch of stuff to tell you...

1. My grandma moved in with us. She has my room and I am sharing with my sister. She is 90, so she is less and less self-sufficient but she is such a blessing to all of us. She NEVER complains and is so sweet. She is a good influence to me. I complain too much and have too little patience.

2. I cut my hair-SHORT. It is really cute I think. But sometimes I really really miss my long hair. It was getting really long (nearly past my shoulder blades.)

3. I am all signed up for college classes in the winter at MHCC. I am taking Writing 121, Math 95, and American Government. Classes start January 9th, the day after my 18th birthday!! :) I am so excited!

4. I got back from visiting Kate up in Canada on Tuesday. I was supposed to come back Monday but there was a freak ice storm in the greater Portland area so no one would have been able to get me from the train station.
In Canada, I went to her school on Friday, snowboarding on Saturday, church on Sunday, the mall and a Christmas party on Monday and home on Tuesday. We had a lot of fun.

So all is well with us. I have church tonight and on Christmas Eve, the Pikes are coming for the yearly party at our house. One of my best guy friends (basically my adopted big brother) is sharing Christmas with us this year cause his family lives in Cali. We are all excited to have him. (Our house is usually full of girls and one 12-year old boy most of the time so it is always nice when a man comes over. :) )

Sorry for leaving you hanging so long. I will try to update sooner next time.